Constantly changing. I don’t do so well with change. It’s not my preferred environment, really. So I’ve been on sort of a rollercoaster these past few weeks. Lots of change. Positive things mostly.

I am employed once again. I’m so thankful for that, even more so because I actually like my job environment. I haven’t had too much hands-on experience to say I like the job, but I love the environment. The people I’ve met so far are awesome. But new people means change. Training, learning new ways to do things means even more change. And even though the change is positive, it’s stressful.

There have been some recent additions to the household. There is a kitty and also the bringer of the kitty. I’m glad to have the both of them. Things may need work, but all parties involved are willing to work together and it’s a wonderful feeling to know that. Houdini loves the kitty-bringer. He doesn’t mind the kitty, even when she walks up and smacks him across the face for no reason, or jumps out from behind something to scare him. He just pauses, looks at her a moment, and then goes about his business.

Houdini is my model of pure goodness. He loves so fully and willingly. He’s never happy, or sad, or angry. He’s either ecstatic, at ease, or curious. I stumbled upon a quote, not sure who said it but it was, “I aspire to be as great of a person as my dog thinks I am.” To me it was such a powerful statement. I not only aspire to be as great of a person as Houdini thinks I am, but I also aspire to be as great of a being as Houdini is so effortlessly. I want to love fully. I want to trust completely, but cautiously. I want to embrace what brings me joy with my whole being and be able to let go of what brings me pain.

I want to be able to eventually love someone as much as I love Houdini, and have someone love me as much as he does. At this point, that seems like a daunting and lofty goal. I would have said “impossible” in the past. That’s a sign that I’m getting closer.

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